Credits
Songs by Evan Stephens Hall
Evan Stephens Hall – vocals, guitar, percussion
Zack Levine – drums, percussion
Adan Carlo – bass
Josh Marré – guitar, dobro, lap steel, vocals
Sam Skinner – guitar
Nick Levine – guitar, pedal steel
Nandi Rose Plunkett – synth, keyboard, vocals
Doug Hall – piano & vocals on Light On
Engineered by Sam Skinner with Pinegrove
Mixed by Sam with Evan & Zack
Produced by Evan & Sam
Mastered by Greg Calbi at Sterling Sound
Cover art by Evan
released September 28, 2018
i draw a line in my life
singing this is the new way i behave now
& actually live by the shape of that sound
circle in the back of my throat
spinning in my head & on my pillow
telling you things you don’t need to know
letting you know i trust you so much
then i’m looking at you you through the lights
a circle blinking in the tungsten
wondering how i seem to you
forgetting the words i’m singing for you
am i forgetting how it felt?
you were sleeping with your rings on
cardinal wings in the early morning
waking up to a metaphor forming
i draw a line in my skin
i’m pinning down inchoate meaning
mark me right below the ampersand
perforate line dry summer on my own land
then it circulates around town
do i double down because i’m stubborn?
the needle on the phonographic sound
you’re digging it up as soon as it’s drawn down
am i forgetting how it felt?
if you sing along do i remember?
mark this feeling in the simplest shape
let me finally let it fall away
a w a y
i got this feeling a
mile wide
i look at it a little
each side
a portal for to climb inside
how’s it feel in here?
is the water fine?
fine like cloth or like
turpentine?
the pattern where our habits hide
isn’t it lovely
i’ll never hold you
to all you held me to
i wanna talk about
all the ways
every example of
the shapes
we use to communicate
for example when you’re
leaning in
to my armaggeddon
& then you stop
do you also feel the weight of loss?
isn’t it lonely
i’ll never hold ya
the way you held me up
don’t let it get to you you said
well i did
take a rectangle untangle your head
intrepid
would you bet your life on it darling
if i did?
well the way i spent my winter i wonder
how could we commit?
when the long road noise is loud & you can’t hear the song go
& i’m out here with no real belief & no hand for me to hold
up in the early morning for no reason again
relistening to your message & i held it in my head
through broke signal like what type of world we wanna live in
do we curl inwards or live long together in forgiveness?
& you said do we bend our lives to it darling?
then we did
if we learn to love ourselves better maybe
we could commit
paterson & leo
are wandering out
& wandering around
in brookdale
at sundown
they’re looking for…
well, they’re still looking
—here’s another
place in our town
—here’s a loophole
—here’s the steeple
—here’s another
under water
—here’s our friendship
why i oughtta
why i love you
enough to say it
thank you paterson
thank you leo
thank you paterson
thank you leo
washing windows with angelina
i don’t understand anything
violent angles from side to side
how’d you get so tangled up in my life?
how’d you get so caught?
how’d you get so tangled up?
i love you like it’s the old days
when i could ask you anything
how’d you get so tangled up in my thinking?
how’d you get so caught?
how’d you get so tangled up?
warm night before thanksgiving
what do i have to be nervous for?
cuz who am i really beholden to?
i do
hope you wait for me
whoever you are
cuz i’ve been waiting for you
it’s easy enough to lure myself
out of my house if i don’t think about
all my limits i’m on my feet
i’m on my way i’m wandering
it’s easy enough though to lie myself back down
it’s simple it’s like i just remember how
all my limits’ve held me back i hold my head
& i let it ask
why
im altogether down
& when will it end now?
it’s easy enough to lie to myself
my eye, my carnivore
circling appetite
all my limits i’m on my feet
i’m on my way i’m wandering
why
i’m altogether down
& when will it end now?
i’m wondering why
i’m altogether down
& when will it end now??
suddenly i find
i’ve got darkness on my mind
it’s the question mark that keeps me looking
& it’s never satisfied
& it’s
never what i thought
saying i’m happy when i’m not
no, i got darkness on my mind
leaning out the frame
when it’s particulate & grey
i’m perpendicular to my whole being
when i lean a certain way
saying i’m happy when i’m not
finding roaches in the pot
o i got darkness on my mind
some people spend their whole lives looking
for someone who could understand
while meanwhile a lilac blooming
sometimes on the driest land
& i
know it’s been a long time coming
i’m angry & i know that’s weak
& i’m longing out that open window
for whatever it is i seek
some people spend their whole lives looking
for someone who could understand
& while meanwhile a lilac blooming
sometimes on the driest land
& i
know it’s been a long time coming
i’m angry & i know thats weak
so i’m trying not to be so bitter
i’m just looking at it honestly
well i know it’s been a long time coming
i’m angry & i know that’s weak
& i’m longing out that open window
for whatever it is i seek
some people spend their whole lives looking
for someone who could understand
while meanwhile a lilac blooming
sometimes on the driest land
i move through shadow
i go they go wherever
don’t they come in
whenever i let em
i climb through
the skylight
whatever you’re feeling is alright
let you
let go
whatever you’re feeling is natural
low light at dawn
i’ll love that song forever
it’s a shadow
let me know me better
i climb through
the skylight
whatever you’re feeling is alright
let me
let go
whatever you’re feeling is natural
whatever you’re feeling is natural
let me let go
let me know me better
i climb through
the skylight
whatever you’re feeling is alright
let me
let go
whatever you’re feeling is natural
whatever you’re feeling is natural
little amulets
along the window
i’ve got this feeling
like i’ll always love you
but i know that feeling
how it moves through
& through me
& it’s changing already
then on the ambulance
& out the window
sequence of colors
blue & red & then blue
i wanna be
better to me
the better i do i let it
leave me
the way that i see it
everything begins in your light
your center
so leave your light on!
leave your light on
or leave
i wanna be
better to you
i wanna do much better
& i wanna read
your letters again
i wanna learn you forever
forever!!
so leave your light on!
leave your light on
or leave
leave your light on!
leave your light on
don’t leave