Everything so far

Release Date
November 20th, 2015

• New Friends
  lyricstabs

  is there anyone here i know?
  i look around the room, whatever, i let it go
  steve’s in germany
  thats it
  i try to think of anyone else no, yea that’s it
  so i resolve to make new friends
  i liked my old ones but i fucked up so i’ll start again

  what’s the worst that could happen

  strings fray like my good days
  tied around my finger i felt so afraid
  i had my mind on her or on my own
  and when i
  looked back up everybody else was gone
  so
  i resolve to make new friends
  someone tell me to quit my head
  and help me forget it

  what’s the worst that could happen
  the end of summer and i’m still in love with her
  i said forget it
  was it worse that i wasn’t sure
  the end of summer and i’m still in love with her
  i said forget it
  forget it
  forget
  it

• Angelina
  lyricstabs

  washing windows with angelina
  i don’t understand anything
  violent angles from side to side
  how’d you get so tangled up in my life?
  how’d you get so caught?
  how’d you get so tangled up?

  i love you like it’s the old days
  when i could ask you anything
  how’d you get so tangled up in my thinkin?
  how’d you get so caught?
  how’d you get so tangled up?

• Problems
  lyricstabs

  this is how i spend my life up
  singin old songs
  what if i waste my life up?
  & all my problems
  it’s so stupid
  they’re not even problems
  it was supposed to snow
  & it did for a minute
  but there’s no distraction now
  or we could spend these years up
  on the phone
  but is that much better?
  it was supposed to snow
  but it didn’t
  so there’s no excuses now

• Need
  lyricstabs

  it’s a long way
  through the cold day
  why do i need
  besides what i
  recoil & lay beside/s
  why do i need that
  i drank too much
  she thinks i think too much
  what do i need
  that’s not a part of me
  do i care about my brain
  remembering everything?
  i remember everything

• Overthrown
  lyricstabs

  get on
  get overthrown
  get out
  get on
  get overthrown
  you lay
  you lay
  you seize the day
  don’t you know
  i’m seizing slow

• Size of the Moon
  lyricstabs

  do you wanna dance?
  fine. but do you remember when
  in your living room
  when we made some room & moved ourselves around in it?
  it’s how my heart resumed.
  i got caught/ you got those caravaggio moves
  we had some good ideas but we never left that fucking room

  do you wanna talk?
  fine. i’ll talk it out with my dad
  it’s always nice what he says
  he’ll have some good advice from something in a book he read
  if i did what i wanted then why do i feel so bad?

  would you like a drink
  while we wait for everything
  to get good again?
  we’re good at things & so are a lot of our friends
  we should all be rich & making moves like nancy kerrigan, yea

  i dont know what
  i’m afraid of
  but i’m afraid
  one day it all
  will fall away
  maybe i read that
  but still, let’s see
  if nothing else it’s an idle curiosity

  so would you like that drink?
  fine, yea i know. i remember that too
  in your living room, right?
  when we began to fight but then we both got confused
  then we were laughing & crying in awe of the size of the moon

  do you want to die?
  fine you’re right
  but i wonder what it feels like
  to stop feelin so alive
  what if we could wake up in five years and things’d be feelin alright?
  i wanna visit the future and dance in a field of light!

• Need 2
  lyricstabs

  i’m out
  there’s nothing here to care about
  what’s that sound?
  what’s that song about?
  it’s nothing worth me sayin aloud
  so then why do i seem to
  need to?
  why do i seem to
  need to?

• Namesake
  lyricstabs

  i’m misaligned
  misanthropy to pass the time
  this crooked jaw
  i’m always feeling awful

  i’m so ashamed
  yes that’s it i’m so ashamed
  & so is she

  i’m so awake
  the reverberating seam of daybreak
  the hem where night falls again
  is splitting into livid mistakes

  i’ve been tryin to say
  but these awful letters rearrange
  my name: my namesake

  look around
  these redundancies resound
  take this sound:
  how the architecture
  meanders

  oh my my
  i can’t get it off my mind
  your fingers curled:
  a contorted row of antlers
  are you reaching out to me oh god

• V
  lyricstabs

  I’ve been avoiding the void
  but I can’t see the point
  were you talkin to me
  o, my eyes were closed I’m sorry

  When you talk in your sleep
  you draw me out from underneath
  take your hand in my hand
  bloodbrother ampersand

  & the blood will flow
  in the morning when my thoughts are flowing also
  you only know what you notice
  & no, you don’t know me.

  If you’re askin ‘how could I know’
  then you don’t know me
  or if I want it bad enough
  broken
  branches in your eyelids
  & your iris:
  a violent violet

  If you could see me now!

• &
  lyricstabs

  Hand over hand
  I’m pulling myself together
  on this itchy couch again
  I’d pull you in
  but
  I couldn’t help thinking
  or
  my mouth was tarpaulin

  let me start again:
  I didn’t mean to say so
  much about my plans
  so you see my hand
  (see?) it’s never either/or now
  stigmata ampersand

  The morning is the self it’s self evident:
  a clattering of blinds:
  a mimetic wind:
  a sympathetic tremor I’m
  a tessela of signs.

  o I close my eyes &:
  fractal inner rings of varicose resign!
  coiled dark inside
  I’ll open my eyes and clear my
  throat when I know it’s time:
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• Unison
  lyricstabs

  I was warned about you
  but then, I was worn
  through
  then
  but then I let the sound in
  of torches along the path’s edge
  rustling in my eyes & ears
  our eyes & ears
  hours would pass & nothing…

  All contorted in row
  these antlers don’t
  cut
  through
  nor do they tessellate with
  anything along where we’re walking
  cutting out
  & in
  & out & out & in
  again
  hours would pass & nothing…

  I know you
  you know our bodies move in unison
  the answer’s within that
  I could be burning houses but i’m not.
  I knew you
  I thought our bodies moved in unison
  Lucile, I rescind that
  I could be burning houses but I’m not
  I’m not
  I’m not
  I’m not
  I’m not.

• Palisade
  lyricstabs

  I don’t think this is where we end
  but I’ve got some things that we must attend to.
  I’ve been indiscriminate
  but I can’t hide behind accidentals.

  Now,
  I’ve been saying somethings I don’t like
  but what else can I identify with?
  I can’t sleep I’m on them vines.

  I knew those easy days,
  long days,
  long aisles in between me.
  I’m living on easy line,
  blue vine,
  then I’m sick, I’m sleeping all the time.

  I said I’d be there, so I’ll come & let you in.

  O, it’s for you, Leo,
  from across the meridian.
  When I was over you
  my arms were trembling.

  I said I’d be there, so I’ll come & let you in.

• The Metronome
  lyricstabs

  the night my
  necklace fell off
  you fluttered through my
  capillaries like a
  stone moth

  i agree with your ideas but not your tactics
  so look me in the eye & be practical
  when practically there’s nothing left for me to say or do
  it’s only up to you

  a live ladybug
  trapped between my toes:
  keep it together man
  we’re all connected now
  stay composed

  i agree with your ideas but not your tactics
  so look me in the eye & be practical
  when practically there’s nothing left for me to say or do
  it’s only up to you

  the current picture: the metronome;
  i don’t know what this is but it’s not my home

  i thought that we were falling in love
  but we weren’t; only i was

  i agree with your ideas but not your tactics
  so look me in the eye & be practical
  when practically there’s nothing left for me to say or do
  it’s only up to you

• Mather Knoll
  lyricstabs

  You said wake up
  when the curtains are moving out and in.
  I said that might not be too far from the truth,
  anyways.

  I’ll buy you breakfast,
  I’ll buy you medicine.
  You’re calling me out,
  you’re calling me in.

  Little thoughts running,
  it’s not a problem,
  it’ll come back.
  I’ll get to hand shaking
  when I wanna.
  I can’t be alone enough.

  I can’t be alone enough.

  Walking awful quiet
  I could organize my head:
  compartmentalizing it,
  starting out with our impediments.
  I can’t have breakfast without you calling me!
  (You’re calling me out, you’re calling me in.)

  Little thoughts running,
  it’s not a problem,
  it’ll come back.
  I’ll get to hand shaking
  when I wanna.
  I can’t be alone enough.

  I can’t be alone enough.

  Go back to the safe side,
  go back to Mather Knoll.

  Go back to the safe side,
  go back to Mather Knoll.

  Go back to the safe side,
  go back to Mather Knoll.

  Go back to the safe side,
  go back to Mather Knoll.

• Over My Shoulder
  lyricstabs

  Quick shadow dribbling down me:
  I’m looking over my shoulder.
  Justifying anything’s easy,
  like, you look when you hear a sound.

  Somebody once told me,
  “Loosen up your eyes
  because it feels nice,”
  then no more on that subject.
  I blindly led you on & me in the process.

  Thick pupil dilating quietly:
  I’m looking over my shoulder.
  Just if I’m within the interstices,
  then I’m looking for when you come ‘round.

  Somebody once told me:
  “Loosen up your eyes
  because it feels nice,”
  but then no more on that subject.
  I blindly led you on & me in the process.

  Don’t ask how my day was,
  don’t ask anything else.
  (Where did all the time go? // Where’d you put my suitcase?)

• Peeling off the Bark
  lyricstabs

  Leaning in a dark room:
  a look alike James Wright
  (when all my life I’ve been rejecting,
  what will I say yes to?).
  What did I say yes to?
  I’d been cutting glass carefully
  & all my time was spent alone;
  I didn’t expect you.

  What did I say yes to?
  What did I say?
  Been talking ‘bout you so much
  I’m talking you away.
  (What did I say yes to?
  What did I say?
  I’ve been talking about you so much
  I’m talking you away.)

  Cooking up some mushroom in my kitchen,
  tryna tell you about my month;
  you’re only half-listening.

  I know I never listen;
  how can I? Your eyes bloom:
  slanted yellow in the blinds
  bleeding into a dark room.

  So how could I say yes to you?
  What should I say?
  I’ve been talking ‘bout you so much
  Yea, what did I say yes to?
  What did I say?

  I’ve been thinking ‘bout you so much
  I think I’m thinking you away.

  I’m opening it up now:
  What a plunge! What a lark!
  I’m picking all the seeds out,
  I’m peeling off the bark.
  I’m picking all the seeds out!
  I’m breaking it apart.
  I’m opening it up now,
  I’m peeling off the bark.

• Morningtime
  lyricstabs

  What if I went down to the pinegrove & didn’t find anything?
  What if I went past it, yet nothing in me sang?
  Now I’m behind again because my bones won’t align that way.
  Some other time, in another life.

  Ever since “The Archangel
  Michael Killing Satan”
  I’ve been tryna capture
  both ends of the splinter:
  the visible part between my fingernails
  & the part still in my finger.
  Ever since I can remember,
  since the day before they split,
  I’ve been tryna capture
  some realm I don’t know yet.
  You & I, we’re immiscible.
  I’ve known it since we laid in the thistles.
  & in the moments when I’m difficult
  you silence me in my revolt.

  Every since “I,”
  since the moments when the night limped by,
  & all of a sudden it was morningtime.
  Morningtime, morningtime.

• Recycling
  lyricstabs

  Rolling on his back like an ocelot
  crawling on his stomach you make the lids stick together
  nothing really bugs me out
  nothing really bugs me.

  Tightening the slack on the millimeter tape
  trudging through your stomach I make the walls split forever
  nothing really bugs me out
  nothing really bugs me

  anymore. I’ve had enough.
  Now we’re on the same page.

  Circling the gap like you don’t know what you hold
  drying out my knuckles you tucked it between the folds
  nothing really bugs me out
  nothing really bugs me.

  Recycling the cans at the center by the boxcars
  we’ve been carving little symbols in the bark
  nothing really bugs me out
  nothing really bugs me
  out.

  So let it go:
  there’s nothing I could tell you
  that you don’t already know.

• Sunday
  lyricstabs

  I woke up it was Saturday,
  grey in the sky,
  there’s nothing more to say on that.

  I got up got out of my bed,
  stretched my arms wide,
  it’s time to let this fall from me.

  It’s time to let it fall.

  I move through & just as soon
  my clothes are catching on.
  (My eyes closed, lost in my room.)
  I move through & just assume
  my clothes are catching on thorns,
  but I’m bringing them with me,
  bringing them with me.

  Call me on Sunday.
  Call me!
  Call me!
  Call me on Sunday.

  I move through & just as soon
  my clothes are catching on.
  I’ll come through, I always do.

  When I’m moving I just assume
  my clothes are catching on thorns,
  but I’m bringing them with me,
  bringing them with me.

  I never kept good touch.
  But it’s alright, you never expected much.

• On Jet Lag
  lyricstabs

  Don’t tell me that the west has won;
  we worked hard to reverse that notion.
  Closer than anyone, but we’re not for each other, no:
  I’ve got to crack my eyes to watch the wind blow.

  Cat’s Cradle is a fable, we all know that.
  Soon as I can I will slide that under the table.
  I met your mother and you father & I liked them;
  they bicker the way we bicker,
  the way we bicker.

  A black cat just snuck up on me;
  activities and distractions are my remedy.
  You’re writing by lamp light, you’re writing by the moon rise:
  a stark contrast to the Montclairian buzz skies.

  Cat’s Cradle is a fable, we all know that.
  Soon as I can I will slide that under the table.
  I met your mother and you father & I liked them;
  they bicker the way we bicker,
  back when our blood was thicker than oil
  & the soil was in every spark & every pore
  & everything. My departure made my nerves sting.
  It’s leaving a person place or thing you know you shouldn’t.

  On jet lag: I’m past that.
  Plainly, none of this is that bad.
  He said, “let me be clear this woman’s crazy.”
  I caught a glimpse of your truth as you turned to me
  & it was kind & it was stubborn, just like I’d like mine to be
  so I will dissuade, I will just sleep.
  I can be patient, probably.

• DAYS
  lyricstabs

  I’m in bed for days
  with a toothache.
  I’ve been dead for days.
  Oo.oO in the summertime.
  Oo.oO when I’m so inclined.

  I’m in bed for days
  with a toothache.
  I’ve been dead for days.
  Oo.oO in the summertime.
  Oo.oO when I’m so inclined.
  Oo.oO you’re that jagged line:
  you’re my heartbeat.

  You’re my heartbeat!

  I flip the on-switch,
  I mark where I tread!
  I put the sand in my,
  I put the sand in my bed!